I am totally female and all, heh, it was jut the concept of being called girl, young woman, lady or woman. I had a hard time thinking of myself as being a woman.
That has ended. Something about going through this has forever altered my mind. I'm a woman, I won't be going back. I can't explain why. I don't feel more mature necessarily. It's like my soul is deeper. That sounds lame but it's the best way I can say it.
I was on Pinterest today and someone had a Motherhood board and my first thought was I'm just not ready for that. Then I looked again and it was like something whispered to my heart that pain doesn't make it not beautiful. Motherhood is still a beautiful precious gift.
I plan to journal this journey for a while. You'll read, if you continue, about the hurt and the heal. I just feel that's how I need to do this. I hope none think I am trying to be all woe is me. For one thing, I could never be an entire band. Sorry. Music humor.
My intention is never to wallow.
You are under no obligation to read.
I just hope to find the Phoenix in all of this.