I am not really sure what to say today.
Some have wisely informed me to not try to heal too fast. Don't push it. Oddly enough, that was exactly what was on my mind. A feeling of am I truly being genuine in this?
I'm not going to try to slow healing either, but, I never want to present false strength. That would simply be prideful.
This really does hurt. Tonight, my heart feels so empty with the loss of my sweethearts. I long for a daughter. I know there is a chance Somewhere and I will have children later.
I don't understand it all. Some moments I don't understand it at all.