That's the thing on my mind right now. I have an awareness of many of my flaws, I can admit that. One of my most deadly painful flaws is jealousy. I am often overwhelmingly jealous. I know it is not healthy. It eats at me and my soul. I have deep rooted issues. I come from an enormously talented family and I have many brilliant friends. Many times I can not enjoy or even attend some events due to my jealousy. I feel the need t be as good, to be appreciated, to be head in esteem. That's crap. I felt the need to diligently hold a dream to be famous and well-known. Somehow, in my mind, that meant others success battled with mine.
"Why didn't people want me to sing, why were others picked over me." "Why isn't my art the most popular." "How dare that person be so gifted without even caring or trying."
God honestly doesn't care how famous I am on earth. All He cares about is His fame.
No more me.